My wife and I discussed how to adjust our financials, so things will be easier for her to manage without me. It’s an unsettling feeling talking about yourself almost in the past tense.
I spent a fair amount of time outlining a presentation on understanding cancer statistics. I’m targeting cancer support groups and the like.
Also continued work on the master document for my wife after I’m gone. It will contain burial requests, reminders, how to do the things I do now (and what they are), financial planning tips, password lists, account lists, key internet resource links, people resources to contact for various things, etc. It’s shaping up as a significant piece of work.
Decided to check out some other prostate cancer blogs and maybe network with their authors. The first one I found had its most recent entry on March 13, 2012. A few sentences in, it became clear this was probably his last entry, period. The entry was written at 1:00 AM; his lungs and the pain meds were failing. The pain was so bad he planned to go to the hospital for admission to get better meds – as soon as he finished the post. He spent some time writing about what he’d learned from life. He said he might well die later that day. I’m pretty sure he did. After a day full of my death, reading about this guy’s last thoughts tapped me out. I need some time away from all this gloom.