Met with the oncologist today. After extensive questioning he agreed it was time to return to Casodex.
Went home. Took the pill. No thunder clap, no lightning, no alien bursting out of my chest. In fact I feel much better. The decision has been made, I’m on the Casodex track. So far, so good. I really feel enough time has elapsed since the radiation therapy that I’ll be OK.
Had a great dinner with my wife tonight. Afterwards, I stopped at the local liquor store to get some beer and wine. The first time in months for me. I like one of the clerks who works there and he was there tonight. We talked about how long it’s been since I stopped by. I told him about the cancer. He hopefully asked if it was cured and I said no. He then asked if it was incurable and I said yes. The look of despair on his face was so overwhelming. Here’s someone I really don’t know at all, feeling those feelings for me. It was very special. I told him I still planned to have a good life and he brightened up. And I do.