I had a run of almost two weeks with no Casodex side effects, but it’s come to an end. Saturday night I was driving down the highway and suddenly, for no reason, just wanted to start crying. Along with that came a mild depression that I could tell was from the Casodex. As when I was on Casodex before, in a few minutes the urge to cry passed. The depression lifted in an hour or so, also typical for Casodex for me.
Sunday afternoon the whole thing repeated itself. The depressions were mild, but still weren’t fun. I pushed through the desire to cry because there’s no cathartic effect. I just feel drained if I succumb.
If history repeats itself, I’ll wind up with these depressive episodes every two or three days.
The hot flashes and cold sweats haven’t returned yet. There’s no reason to believe they won’t, but I’m still hoping.
Regardless, I have to come to terms with these side effects. I’ll be on Casodex or something else with similar side effects for the rest of my life. It’s a sobering thought. At least there’s something for me to do that isn’t chemo.