Gotta say sometimes I get confused. The Casodex produces profound personality changes. One minute I’m fine, the next I want to break down crying. Other times the Casodex just leaves me depressed. Time zone changes intensify the effect. There are tons of events in daily life that remind me of my cancer and impending death, and bring on a natural sadness. An Adderall often gets me feeling great in an hour or two. Coffee sometimes even has an uplifting effect from time to time. A few drinks may help. My feelings swing one way and another. Which set is the “real” me? I’ve lost track and have pretty much given up trying to sort it out. My plan is to just try to enjoy the time I have left as much as possible. Whoever I am.