Another tough day with my emotions changing far too fast. The shrink suggested I try melatonin to help get my body clock reset. I’m gonna do that starting tonight.
The low when I woke up this morning was so bad I began wondering if I might have to go off Casodex. Thinking about that for just a couple minutes scared the hell out of me. It would probably shorten my life by a year or more and it would be time when I’m asymptomatic. The oncologist told me previously that if I had to go off Casodex, then chemo would be the next thing to do. No thanks. I decided I had to do something to get out of the rut pronto. Sugar and caffeine, in the form of pastries and Coke, provided my first stimulant hit, and I took the Adderall for the longer term. I did come out of it in an hour or so, but have been weaving back and forth emotionally all day. Two huge hot flashes. I don’t know how my wife puts up with me, she’s fantastic. I sure hope the melatonin helps.