Went to the oncologist today. I hoped to transition from casodex to lupron due to breast sensitivity and enlargement. He did a physical exam and said he couldn’t feel any of the tissue that is associated with breast enlargement from casodex. He was very uncomfortable with me switching to Lupron since the shots last a minimum of a month and if there were to be a bad reaction early on, such as I had after the radiation, I’d be stuck. I made the case that I thought a lot of that depression was likely caused by the radiation and its side effects. He agreed that could well explain it, but still wanted to play it safe. So we decided I’d talk to to the shrink about the depression situation and re-address this at my next appointment with him in early October.
A couple of hours later I finally realized just how diplomatic he was. In reality what he told me was that there was no physical evidence that my breasts have enlarged from casodex (and my weight has been stable). I now realize it’s very unlikely there was a real problem, it was just my mind playing tricks on me. And I had started thinking there might be a place for me as a Victoria’s Secret model. I understand the pay is really good. Oh well.