My year in review. I saw lots of cool places. Took lots of photos. Had many good times with my wife and friends. On balance, though, it was a horrible year. The worst of my life.
At the heart of it was my misguided decision to get elective radiation treatment in Jan-Feb. The procedure and after effects produced levels of pain and depression I didn’t think possible. Something inside me snapped, and I’ve been working ever since to get back to where I was. I’ve had brief periods where it appeared I made it, only to have drugs fail.
Right now I’m doing fairly well and only taking one psychotropic drug, which is very encouraging. It also appears I finally kicked the flu I caught about 3 weeks ago. But I’ve been off the Casodex for a month and half, maybe longer. I need to restart it soon, probably in a week or so. We’ll see what happens when its side effects kick in. To be honest, I’m expecting Casodex to significantly upset the apple cart. It’s effects are powerful while my current state is fragile. I don’t really have much choice. If I stay off Casodex, my life is significantly shortened. Delightful.
That all said, I’m hopeful this year will be significantly better than last year. It’s pretty unlikely that cancer will kill me this year. I also have a reasonable chance of remaining asymptomatic. Of course I’ll still have to deal with Casodex and depression, but maybe that can be done. I’m going to find out, that’s for sure.