I should have seen it coming. After realizing that I’ll almost certainly go off Lupron early, the other shoe didn’t drop until this morning. It finally occurred to me that what this means is I will die sooner. The thought just freaked me out and made my death come into sharp focus.
All of the morning and most of the afternoon were spent trying to get my arms around this. I finally came to the conclusion that my current life on Lupron is such a low quality of life that it’s better to forgo the extra months alive and switch to something where I can enjoy my time left.
I’m actually doing pretty good right now Had a reasonable dinner and am comfortable with exploring other options. I meet with the oncologist Tuesday the 10th and we’ll see what develops.
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So sorry. That sucks. It all sucks. I hate this disease.
Couldn’t agree more!
So sorry you are dealing with this. Quality and quantity are not equal, and it’s good you realize that, but still so sorry. Sending good thoughts your way.
Thank you for the kind words and wishes.
These things are never easy. Hopefully your oncologist will have some options for you.
I sure hope so.
Hang in there YAPCab. It can’t be easy to make the trade off – quality of life versus time here. My specialists keep pushing hormone therapy but I keep saying no. Until they can convince me that the trade off in terms of time beats the reduction in quality of life, I can’t see the point. Thinking of you and sending positive vibes. Take care. Cheers, Phil
Despite all the problems I’m having with Lupron. I think you should try a one month shot to see what it’s like. Most people don’t have as strong a negative reaction as I do and it really does do a great job keeping PSA under control. Regardless, I’m behind you for any choice you make.
Definitely take the Lupron therapy. My side-effects are mild and knowing the PSA is down is worth it.
I am so very sorry, I cannot fully imagine what it took to get to this place. I will continue the prayers and good thoughts for both you and your wife.
I just keep hoping it will get better. The constant nausea is wearing me down.
just read this, thinking of you. nothing is written in stone as far as timeline, is that a stupid thing to say? I don’t want to minimize this realization that you are having, and the profound emotional responses, but maybe I need to say it for myself, too … so much we don’t know and can’t know.
on another note, you mention the nausea, – have you tried or has anyone suggested medical marijuana? what are your thoughts or experience with that?
Not stupid as all. We just don’t know.
Regarding medical marijuana, I’m trying it out now. Early experiences are not encouraging. I pst details on my blog.