I’m seriously thinking about going off all the pills I’m taking now.
This morning I woke myself up a dozen or so times yelling as a result of psychotic dreams caused by the anti-depressants I’m taking. Every time I see the shrink he asks if the drugs have started to produce hallucinations yet.
I decided to take a look at all the common side effects of the drugs I’m taking, six of them in total. One for high cholesterol, two for high blood pressure, two for depression and one for prostate cancer. Casodex for prostate cancer is the winner with 28 common side effects on its own. I found out my high cholesterol drug, Crestor, is known to produce depression – nice. Across all six drugs I counted about twenty different side effects I’m currently experiencing. No shit. No wonder my life sucks so much of the time. I guess I should consider myself lucky, though. There are over a half dozen other side effects I don’t have that at least two of the drugs are known to cause. There’s another couple dozen that each drug can individually produce that I don’t have either. For some reason I don’t feel all that lucky…
I think my GP is great, but I’m going to cut back on the meds one way or another. My GP was very insistent that I take the high cholesterol and blood pressure pills, but they’re on the chopping block now. I’ve already tried multiple versions of both of them. My cholesterol and blood pressure are well controlled, but let’s face facts. I have terminal, phase IV prostate cancer. The likelihood of remission, even with chemo, is virtually nil according to my oncologist. If I stay on Casodex and forgo chemo, which I’m likely to do, statistically I have maybe, maybe, three years left on average. Is there really that much of a risk I’ll have a heart attack or stroke in three years or so?
If I go off the antidepressants, there’s no question the depression will return big time and then I can try TMS. I have 40% chance that TMS will help they say. Who knows how big an effect my stopping the use of Crestor might add to that. The odds aren’t what I’d like, but beggars can’t be choosers. If it works, great. If not, then I have to deal with that.
And the Casodex, ah yes, the devil’s own drug. I don’t think male urologists should be legally allowed to prescribe it or Lupron without being forced to take it for at least three months. Not a week goes by that I don’t think about going off Casodex multiple times. It would probably shorten my life by one, maybe two, years if I were to do so. Right now I’m probably not there, but I wax and wane.
Guess I’ll have it out with my GP soon. But first I have to get back to the US. We’re in the Eastern Caribbean right now. Because of all the side effects, so far this has been a “challenging” vacation. In many ways I think more challenging for my wife than me.
I’ll keep you posted.